The Glitch in Matrix

 January 3, 2021

Uluwatu, Bali

11:36 pm

Sometimes I wonder whether somebody actually read my series of online notes that has absolutely no specific themes going on, the more real question is actually "Does somebody still read nowadays?". I laugh at my own agony and somehow find a release that nobody actually read this and find a safe haven that no one actually care.Yet on another spectrum, it is a mixed feelings THAT no one cares. Deep down I want someone to care. I want someone genuinely, meaningfully care..

THE LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP

This very person sees me as a sweet as cotton candy kinda woman
sometimes he told me i’m a strong lady
This very person calls me tough
and the other times he told me i’m soft
This very person knows that I'm miss independent
and yet he likes the way I needed him to be around every now and then
somehow I catch a glimpse of admiration
glimpse of adoration and infatuation coming from his crystal blue eyes.


Yet most often than not I have my eyes blurred by the tears in the middle of the night.
Curling up my body so that it could embraces its own, wishing to trick the mind into thinking that He, that person, my person is the one embracing.

WONDER

Amsterdam, Amstel
2017, June 11th
08:45 pm


I see the world in wonder.

Those words kept its echoes on my mind. I was on 12:00 pm Sunday service as the worshippers began to sing the song "Wonder" my heart bursts out full of joy.

I see the world in wonder.

The more I think about it, the more I solely realised of how much loved and blessed I am by the one and only God. I once dreamt of seeing the world wondering how it's like to be at the other side of the world seeing all the beauties and wonders.

How being 25 has got me into thinking

Just a couple days ago I am officially welcomed to the quarter life, or some might say the quarter squad #quartersquad and as far as i'm concerned nothing specific has changed in terms of physical transformation (at least that's what I think), well maybe my face gets weirder lately? i have no idea lol.

So many things happened in my life from age 24 to my newly quarter life now, it was a hell of a roller coaster ride I would say. Crazy experiences! life lessons, heart broken stories, sincere happy moments, family bonding, friends who went away, family drama, the new guy(s) I dated, questioning phase, insecurities, mad love? revelation, new faces, and all many priceless moments that I been thru in just 365 days.

HOLIWORK: LONDON BTS (Behind The Scene)

Coldplay - Amazing Day

"Ladies and Gentlemen, we have just landed in Heathrow International airport, welcome to London."

Grey clouds welcomed me and the entire crew on June 23rd 2016, it was a cloudy afternoon in London and rain start pouring down. I saw few people in a uniform standing before the 2L-door on our Boeing 777 giving us signs to follow their path. We -crew- took the elevator down to the parking lane and head to the bus, whereas the bus took us to the crew security area. Our luggages were sent to the security room and we were asked to open all of it. 

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2009

I promised my high school-me back then that one day I would be in London no matter how no matter what. I was totally clueless how the heck I was going to make it happen honestly. High school was a tough years, my parents were in an unstable financial condition, my dad's businesses were all lead to the dead end, he was tricked by his partners somehow and we struggled to keep our feet on the ground, yet I still believe that I'm still gonna make it anyway. Fly to London I shall do. I just know.

Ocean

"Flight Attendant, Take Off Position"

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2015, September

it's me sitting, not in my uniform not with my hair do, just sitting next to the window with my casual white dress as another normal passenger. Crystal clear I reckon my heart beats faster, all those excitements bursting out loud, my head full about you and all the wrongness that I sense.

Here I am, on your land. Airport smells like the ocean. You... you smell like the ocean. I saw you there with your charming smile, still wrong, all of these are wrong.

11 Tugas Pramugari yang Belum Kamu Ketahui

Good news for wannabes!

Disini gue akan kembali menulis mengenai hal-hal ke-pramugari-an -bukan eyd yang baik- hehe jadi simak baik-baik yah. Mungkin bagi kalian yang udah nggak sabar pengen cepet-cepet jadi pramugari pasti recently melakukan googling mengenai apa aja sih kerjaan pramugari di awan sana? Mungkin ada yang sudah paham bahwa we as a cabin crew our main duty is to perform safety, tapi selain safety apa aja sih yang dilakukan? apa iya cuma menyajikan makanan dan minuman aja? Apa iya cuma senyam-senyum nyengar-nyengir aja? Boarding angkat-angkatin barang penumpang? Well without further due, let's get to know what we do exactly from the moment we enter the aircraft to up in the air!

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